My fellow friend and super fab blogger comeback girl wrote about Beyonce and some of her songs nearly 8 months ago. At the time I really didn’t care for this “Ego” song, but only because I felt I didn’t really have what attracted the type of man I wanted.
Now true indeed I know I have a lot going for myself, but after I really listened to the words I had to put in check the area’s that I didn’t have it going on. Right now im going through this experiment/operation find yourself phase, so everything I do will ultimately lead me to that special someone (whoever,whenever that may be). But am I really ready when he comes? Would I date myself and actually be happy with me? Is my game so tight im seriously attracting what I want back? HECK NO!!
For the longest I had actually been attracting those “strong ego” type men (that I couldn’t keep) but I realized back then I was drawn to those type of men because of the sense of accomplishment they exuded. FYI this isn’t a good way to carry on a relationship. I constantly felt like I had to compete with other women (that didn’t exist) I had low self esteem, always felt I wasn’t enough, and eventually it showed. I realized I wanted what they had but never truly tried to attain my own version of an “Ego”. I thought I could just date someone who had what I was lacking and it would all be fine…. I in essence thought what they had was something I could never attain, a sense of self and accomplishment. That intrigued me but in an unhealthy way, as long as I used someone else to replace what I lacked, I would never reach my OWN full potential.
Don’t get me wrong again this isn’t a debbie downer moment at all. But if I am going to keep it real I have always wanted to attract a man so fly I can say wow he’s got a big “hahaha” ego! but this time it would be for the right reasons. Because I brought those same good qualities to the table.
Every day I take steps to improve my life and as of late I have been making some good progress, however I can do more. I can eat right and look as good as possible to attract a healthy fit man, I can tighten up my spiritual life so strong that everyone can see “the God in me” and so will he without taking it lightly. I can also start to treat people the way I want to be treated.
I have been doing things little by little and even still I won’t be perfect. But I will be “Better” and it won’t feel like its too overwhelming all the while.
My point is after listening to the song, it showed me 100% that I am what I attract and I want to attract the best man, In order to do that I have to become what I want mentally, spiritually, and physically. We all want someone to be that person every body says “oh who is that?” but first we gotta BE THAT PERSON.
Sang it wit me nah, she’s got a big ha ha ha EGO! But can you back it up??
“he’s got a big “hahaha” ego”
OKKK Kanye.
This was a great post Mik… GOod job!