So the weekend is finally over and my boo was here! He let me borrow his usb cord to download these pictures for you guys. Apparently the one I have is broken as well as one of my actual ports on the laptop time for an upgrade? maybe, but you know my cheap behind will ride this sucker until the keys fall off!! anyways the pictures at the bottom are from last weekend but I thought Id share anyways.
A lot has happened in the last couple of weeks. When the month of October started I was so sincere in multi tasking my a*z and all was well with the world. I had Banana Republic, “C” and “S” holding down the roster something fierce. Then one thing after another started to happen. I found myself telling BR that It was basically time for me to let go. After all it had been 4 years of no progression, while the s!x was great It was time to realize that I deserved more than what he was giving me which was nothing. It was hard giving that comfort up but I did it.
Funny thing Is that I didn’t realize was that when I truly came to terms with letting go, I was actually allowing room for something better and I had no clue.
Then there was “C”. He actually started out pretty ok, though things were ok I realized I was partially forcing the chemistry between us due to his “connection with God”. We all say we want a Godly man but when God sends him half of us aren’t ready. Now I’m not saying “C” was or wasn’t Godly, he was in church 99.9% of the time lol. But still something wasn’t really right, just because a person says he is a man of God doesn’t mean thats your right of way to be with that person. So anyways over the next few weeks “C” started to show himself unapproved, not saying he was doing anything bad, he treated me nice and did all the right things so to speak but the connection was just not there. He was kinda judgmental, need I say more??
Then there was “S”, he has actually been around for atleast a year now but we had never met face to face. We shared online conversations, text, and phone convo’s here and there. Most of our convo’s had nothing to do with nothing, we just shared our day to day and kept it moving, it was a friendship via the net and nothing more. So months went by and we continued to converse until one day he asked me out. Our first date was rather uneventful actually, seeing him for the first time however kinda shocked me because he looked better than I pictured him to be. So we had dinner, and chatted like everything was cool. After dinner we called it a night and kept it moving. Neither of us made mention of any likes or dislikes and things remained the same for a good while. Then one night he called me over to have dinner with him and we bonded a little bit more. I hadn’t really thought of dating “S” seriously at all, we just kinda “hung out”. But it was 2 weekends ago when I realized it might be more. We had went to the movies that night and thats when I realized I really liked him.
“S” has been nothing more to me than a sweetheart he listens, calls, and is very open about his feelings. Its great to be with someone who doesn’t have a problem letting you know how he feels and he has been very good at letting me know he likes me a lot and backs it up as well. He has been very chivalrous (flowers at top he brought) and sweet. He even opens doors! I couldn’t ask for anything better.
The plan is to take things slow and let our relationship develop, we have decided to date exclusively which I wouldn’t have seen coming but I embrace it 100% because I like him that much. Its gonna be interesting to have the “boyfriend” you hear people always saying labels don’t mean a thing but they do TRUST they do. The other thing I forgot to mention is that “S” is 2 years younger than me, which makes me wonder if his age has anything to do with his level of commitment and easiness. It kinda feels like he hasn’t been subjected to all the drama that comes with aging he is just cool, as if his heart aint neva been broken. It will be interesting and you all will be here to watch as this new relationship comes together. Trust I have more to talk about so stay tuned!!! One being that we haven’t had s*x yet…. dun dun dun….
*Blank stare*
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